Thursday, June 6, 2013

Asleep in perfect blue buildings...

I always thought Perfect Blue Buildings by Counting Crows was a love song about longing and heart ache. August & Everything After had a huge impact on me in my formative years... Looking back (in a nick hornby/high fidelity way) I think I can trace many of my skewed & misconceived concepts & expectations of adult relationships to late 90's radio pop... Yes, I'm talking about you Adam Duritz and Ryan Adams and Elliot Smith and Michael Stipe and Evan Dando. Thanks. Thanks a lot.

Could my relationship with Spin magazine & familiarity with the 'college charts' on the back page of Rolling Stone Magazine in the mid to late 90's (back when RS was glossy and oversized) actually have been more caustic than Disney to my agnsty teenage emotional development? Maybe.

Anyway, during my recent 90's radio hit revival marathon (thinking about making it an annual event btw) I realized that some of the 'nonsense' lines that I wrote off at first blush back in the late 90's as throw aways by the artist are actually pretty obvious drug references. Disappointing? A little bit. I'm not so much dissappointed in the rock 'n roller - afterall 'drugs' is the second most prevalent ingredient in the 'sex, drugs, & rock n'roll' formula but more disappointed in my complete oblivion to it. (Remember, all of these songs came out WAY before the internet so you couldn't just Google "song meanings" or Youtube videos. You had to create interpretations for yourself - yeah, old school style.) I always expect things to have so much more meaning than they actually do and in turn, I want words (and imagery) to carry so much more importance than realistically possible.

After a few listens under this new realization I've decided that  I'm going to keep believing it's a love song... And not about prescription drugs or heroin withdrawal or what ever. I am not ready to give this one up. Some Goo Goo Dolls stuff, fine. The entire 3rd Eye Blind catalog, no problem. Lucky Boys Confusion (ok, I knew those songs were about drugs even back in the day). But not this one. I need Perfect Blue Buildings to be a sad, sad love song about desire and regret because that leaves the possibility for redemption and salvation and atonement.
The duel interpretations of this song really brings to light how close the feelings in the human experience of LOVE and ADDICTION really are...

Song: Perfect Blue Buildings
Artist: Counting Crows
Album: August & Everything After

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

All your love is just a dream

If I could crawl into a ball & live in a pop song then I would feel complete. Completely empty.

"Are you happy when you're sleeping?
Does he keep you safe and warm?
Does he tell you when you're sorry?
Does he tell you when you're wrong?"

That's almost everything I need. Almost.

Artist: Counting Crows
Song: A Murder of One
Song: Sullivan Street

Thursday, April 4, 2013

You make your past your past

Still chasing my Joshua-Radin-brand-new-day moment. I know it's coming soon. I can feel like getting closer...

Song: Brand New Day
Artist: Joshua Radin

Thursday, March 28, 2013

The empty darkness howled like a dog, but no wind.

How can we all be so connected (& different like everybody else) but still spend so much time being so so lonely?

I miss being near the ocean. I miss being near the people that love me.

What I mean is if you feel like dancing, then dance with me.

Song: Flight 180
Artist: Bishop Allen

Poem: Multiplication Table
Author: Robert Penn Warren

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Artificial communication - Now with half the calories! The skinny on what is 'real'?

My best friends are robots. No, literally.

Pandora radio turns me on to new music, not a mix tape or cd compilation that was put together but deliberate human hands & a conscious mind. Rather an algorithm of likes & preferences data gathered in a software program.

I meet my potential suitors via online dating websites. "How did you guys meet?" I can't remember the last time i could claim 'someone introduced us' the answer always is "on the Internet."

All these things are powered by user generated data. 'Garbage in, garbage out'.... Maybe. The common belief is that all of these technological advances & abilities disconnect us from the human parts of who we are. What if it's just the opposite? What if all of these things actually zoom the microscope in so close that the human fabric becomes unrecognizable but in actuality that's all it really is? More human than human?

Song: on standby
Artist: Grandaddy

Song: for real
Artist: Okkervil River

Song: more human than human
Artist: White Zombie

Thursday, February 14, 2013


Song of the day, Valentines Day 2013: okkervil river Get Big.

"& I can't say why each day doesn't quite fit the space we saved for it"

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Cause love is an inkless pen.

Song: Someone to Share My Life With
Artist: Jens Lekman
(no title)

Artist: Belle & Sebastian
Track: I don't love anyone

Artist: M.I.A.
Track: Paper Planes

"I wouldn't die for your sins."
Artist: Clem Snide
Track: Messiah Complex Blues